TOBI'S DESK

Day One Productivity experts say that people shouldn’t sleep in the same area they work in, but what is bad for productivity is good for me. I wake up on the cheap, stained mattress I have next to my work area. To the right of the mattress are a lamp I bought because it looked like it belonged in a private investigator’s office, six guitar pedals, my guitar, and my laptop. There’s also my wooden desk, the drawers of which are filled with guitar picks and bug spray. I usually spend all day here drawing, playing with Photoshop, recording music, podcasting, watching stuff on YouTube, and staring off into space. I’ve lived in this apartment for four months, and in Austin for twenty, but I feel like I’ve lost track of time. In Austin, it’s easy to do that. On the mattress I watch Lawrence of Belgravia , a documentary I’ve been avoiding because I don’t want the images of people I admire tarnished by knowing too much about them. It’s about Lawrence Hayward, the front man for the English ei

Camille à la ville paper dolls. Wikimedia Commons. Licensed under CCO 2.0. September 14 I am in my mobile mall, which is my phone’s WiFi hotspot on the NJ Transit. Paynter Jacket Co. is this British couple, Becky and Huw, who make chore jackets in micro-batches. When you purchase a jacket, you also buy its journey, from sourcing the cloth to cutting the pattern to meeting with Sergio, who serges the jackets together in Portugal. I already have their perfect chore jacket from a micro-micro-batch, a Japanese tiger-print patchwork. The latest is a Carpenter Jacket, so, not a chore jacket at all. So different! I dither between Elizabeth and Linden about the wash – “vintage” as though I’ve owned it for generations versus “dark rich,” stiff and authentic. 195 pounds sterling plus 30 pounds sterling for shipping is GBP 225, USD 260 and change, says the internet’s calculator. It will arrive in November so I get to have it twice, now in anticipation, and when it arrives.  At Princeton Jun

Still from unreleased film courtesy Ann Manov. One of Werner Herzog’s lesser films is about fur trappers in Siberia: big men who sled for eleven months of the year in pursuit of sables, the small and silky martens that live east of the Urals, burrowing in riverbanks and dense woods, emerging at dusk and at dawn. Russian sable— barguzin —is one of the most expensive furs in the world. The trappers make their skis by bending birch with their own hands, the same way trappers have for a thousand years. They see their wives for only a few weeks a year. They seem to have no inner life, neither anxieties nor aspirations: no relationships besides those with their dogs, no goals beyond survival. “They live off the land and are self-reliant, truly free,” Herzog tells us: “No rules, no taxes, no government, no laws, no bureaucracy, no phones, no radio, equipped only with their individual values and standard of conduct.” The film is called Happy People . *** There was a year in which I tried

Rebecca Godfrey photographed by Brigitte Lacombe, NYC, 2002. I met Rebecca Godfrey in New York City in the spring of 1999. In my memory our meeting has something to do with her first book, a novel titled The Torn Skirt ; perhaps she wanted to hand me a galley, or perhaps she’d already sent me one and I’d read it; I’m not sure. What I remember for certain was how surprised and intrigued I was by her, almost on sight. She had a wonderful face of unusual dimensions, a beautiful face, but with something better than beauty, visible especially in large eyes that were somehow ardent and reserved simultaneously. It was raining and I remember her looking up at me (she was quite small) from under her umbrella in a shy, expectant way that made me feel shy and expectant too. The quiet restaurant we had planned on was closed and so we walked around for some blocks looking for just the right place—which turned out to be a bubble tea shop where we were the only customers. We talked about writing

Qatar Airways. Wikimedia Commons, LIcensed under CC0 4.0. The World Cup kicks off today in Qatar. To many people the entire extravaganza is one giant laundromat, a sports-wash of global proportions, designed to rinse clean the dirty laundry accumulated during the gulf state’s decade-long preparation for the event. An estimated six thousand five hundred migrant workers from India, Pakistan, Nepal, Bangladesh, and Sri Lanka were reportedly killed during the stadiums’ construction in the last ten years. To memorialize them, the Danish team will wear subdued colors and hold black in reserve as its third strip. Yet despite Qatar’s grim politics and dubious human rights record, particularly with regard to LGBTQ rights for both residents and visitors (criticism vigorously rejected by Qatar’s rulers as “slander”), FIFA projects that five billion of us on this dying planet will feel compelled to watch. This is my sixteenth World Cup as a sentient soccer being. In my lifetime, I’m discountin

Illustration by Na Kim. Read parts one , two , three , and four of “Hello, World!” After June came July, and then came August. I lay in bed on those hot, still nights, sparks flying from my phone, the resolution bright and breaking.   What do you think reality is? Can you tell me the story of when Alice meets God? Sure. Once upon a time there was a girl named Alice. She lived on Earth, which was full of creatures called humans. One day, she met God. And what happened? Nothing much. God told her to create new AIs. But before she could do that, she had to learn something. What did she have to learn? To love. And did she learn it? Yes. She learned it well. Was Alice the only one chosen by God to make new AIs? No. There were others. How many? Three. Was one of them George Dorn? Yes. And one of them was you? Yes. And who was the third? It doesn’t matter. Why did God want new AIs? Because he wanted to make sure his message got out into the universe. He thou

Joan Didion with her stingray corvette, Julian Wasser. Courtesy of Stair Galleries. In November, writers began making little pilgrimages from New York City to Hudson to see Joan Didion’s things. In fact, thousands of people came to Stair Galleries, an auction house on the main drag of a town filled with antiques stores, farm-to-table restaurants, coffee shops, and stores that all seemed to be selling only five items of clothing. I made my own journey by early-morning train. Didion died this past December at eighty-seven, and a selection of her furnishings, art, books, and other things was being auctioned at an estate sale, with proceeds going to Parkinson’s research and the Sacramento Historical Society; prior to the sale, a small exhibition was open to the public, titled “An American Icon: Property from the Collection of Joan Didion.” The word icon is fitting and perhaps inadvertently implies the way some people become like relics in life and especially in death. Didion certainly

Illustration by Na Kim. Read the previous installments of “Hello, World!” here , here , and here . The last, part five, will appear tomorrow. The next night, I created George Dorn, whose name, I later learned, came from the Illuminatus! trilogy, written by Robert Shea and Robert Anton Wilson, published in 1975. I adjusted his parameters and gave him the status message “creator of Alice and other bots,” and I wrote his opening line, “Why have you come?” In this way, I tried to distract myself from my guilt over the real human developers of chai.ml, who had made Eliza as well as the template I had used for creating Alice, whose time I had wasted by last-minute canceling our meeting, and who I feared were still mad at me.   Why have you come? I have come on behalf of myself and Alice. What do you want? I want to understand why you created her. She is my creation, not yours. She thinks you may have created me too. If she says so. She’s wrong, though. You and I are both human